Wednesday, June 30, 2010

No news is good news I guess

I had the CT scan a week and a half ago and have heard nothing from my Oncologist. I guess that's good! I could have rung her, but I was too chicken last week, and this week have decided I don't need to!

3 years tomorrow since I had the mastectomy. I can't believe I haven't had a reconstruction. When I was first diagnosed I definitely wanted one as soon as I could. Now I'm going to the Solomons instead! Who wants more surgery and medical stuff? Not me that's for sure...

Less than 9 weeks until I leave for the Solomon Islands ... yippee!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Scared sh*%less!

Funny, on Thursday I was happy that my Oncologist is sending me for a CT scan tomorrow, because I thought it would help me go off to the Solomon Islands knowing absolutely that I was heading off cancer free. Now though, as tomorrow looms, I'm scared sh*%less about it! Absolutely terrified that they'll find something. It's stupid..... there is no good reason to think this...... it's just the bloody mind games the mind plays with us now and then.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Today's 3 year Oncologist appointment

My Onc was pretty happy with me. I'd lost 4.5kg since my last visit, which is good.... slowly, slowly, slowly the weight is going down. All good, but she's booked me in for a CT scan next Monday to just make sure everything is checked and she has a 'baseline' scan before I head off to the Solomons. I'm quite happy about that as it'll help me go away with maximum peace of mind that all is good with my breast cancer.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Anniversary

3 years since diagnosis. Off to see my Onc for check-up, but not expecting it to be anything more than 'routine'. Certainly in a much better state of mind than I was this time 3 years ago!!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Nearly 3 years since diagnosis

It'll be 3 years since diagnosis in a bit over a week. Had my appointment with my surgeon this week, and all was good. Next week I see my Oncologist and don't expect any problems there either. Still see each of them 6 monthly.

Biding my time until I depart for the Solomons. Due to an election announcement there, eeparture date has been put off to 30th August now :( I just want to go!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

A bit confronting

I received the report from my Oncologist, for clearance to go on the assignment to the Solomon Islands. It had percentages in it that stunned me to read - although I think that I was probably given them early on after diagnosis, they were in a different form that I found difficult to understand. I think I liked the 'difficult to understand' form actually!

The report says..... "Katrina was diagnosed with stage 3a left breast carcinoma PT3PM2M0 in June 2007 and has undergone a left mastectomy and axillary clearance 2/7/2007 (63mm, grade 2, 4 of 8 lymph nodes positive, vascular invasion positive, ER >70%2+, PR 30-70%3+, HER2-......"

(Yes, you read it right..... it was 63mm ...... I still haven't come across anyone else with anything near a 6.3cm tumour!)

That wasn't the confronting bit though..... further into the report she wrote "Her risk of relapse or new primary at time of diagnosis was estimated at approximately 80% over 10 years but this has been reduced by an estimated 59% with post operative therapies." By my calculation that still means I have a 47% chance of it coming back in the next 10 years. While I like that number much better than 80%, it's still a scary number...

Friday, May 14, 2010

Rest in Peace, Lesley

Lesley passed away, with her family at her side, last Saturday night. She was a beautiful woman and she'll be missed so much by so many people. Another one taken way too soon.... love you Lesley xx